I'm a tad shy.

When it comes to such things, I guess I do get a nervous breakdown or whatsoever. No I dont have stage fright. But yet, when it comes to such things, where the simplest questions solve everything, yes, I do get a tad shy. And I ve got to see so many people I havent seen for such a long time. Though there may be touches of disgust in some of them , I do miss them all the same.

Life's been a total wreckage for me so far. I don't see my purpose, my aim, my target or anything. I try to motivate myself, but it falls back to the starting point at the end of the day. A lack of motivation, a need for someone to push me hard. It all boils down to me in the end. Perhaps I'm just too not used to hearing the phrase "remedial after school" over here. Once upon a time, a couple of years back I guess, I would really have short lifespans of mug whenever I see people push themselves hard. But never nowadays. I know I need it, and that I lack it. But I seriously do not know how I can make myself work. Why is this so?

Wreckage of a life.

When people tell you "it's gonna be okay", never snap back at them saying "you know its not gonna be okay". Because, they do know its not gonna be okay, but what else can they provide, but comfort for your miserable soul?