The simplest of matters that lead to the most complicated scenarios. The evolution of pure innocence to wicked evilness. I demand all of them back. All.

Okay. So hello, havent blogged in some time, exclusive of the post specially dedicated to czy wsa ksy hyz. Amazing how the paths of our lives crossed each other at the same interval. Also pretty nice we dont have any 'leader' amongst us or what, standing equally is nice. K, I think the last post is still ringing in on me so my apologies.

Some matters have been boggling my mind of recent, all sorts, schools, family, relationships. Been eating on the energies my braindead head has got left. About the major examinations, it feels awfully weird, and somehow inferior, that you realise, you re on the bylines, supporting, cheering them on, and you get left out. No complaints here, just pure inferiority. Silent inferiority.

Examinations, you dread them yet you need them, for they lead you on to greater things. They set the purposes you find in your life, and make you work hard. You seek the end of them, yet you feel listless and empty after them. Not whining, but, I see everyone around me working hard, for the Os. Yet it besets onto me, the strange isolation. It should have never been this way, it should have been all of us working hard together. Yet who do I have to blame for this consequence and loneliness? No one. But me.

Family. Hmmm.
For You^,
Sometimes I just wish You^'d care more for everyone of us. I wish You^ would come home and try all sorts of family affairs up and going again. Instead of lying on the bloody sofa watching a dead screen with moving pictures. Yes that is what I truthfully wish for.
For You*,
I wish You* wound understand that though we are borne of you, we are ultimately different and individual beings on our own. That Your* way and thoughts might never be the way we want things, that You* should recognise us as living beings on our own. Forcing Your* opinions, thoughts, and methods on us would actually kill us off. We end up nothing more than dead robots acting on your orders. Honestly, yea.
For You&,
Parents arent there so they can provide you with whatsoever you seek. They're supposed to guide. So stop leeching onto them, and exploit everything that's left in this wreck. Freedom they've given You&, consideration You& give back.
For You%,
Ahh, the youngest amongst us. The darling of all. Treasure Yourself%, You% might find us being hard on You% at times, but just take it all in. We mean the best for You%. If there is one person we would wish to guide, it would definitely be You%. Stay strong.
For Me,
I wish, desperately, that my little being would be able to spur on differences, and put us back on the right track. Right track of the family. Not the fucking hostel this place is turning to be. I so wish, that I can heave everything up, that I can, truthfully make a difference. Whatsoever the impact.

Relationships.
Interesting, I dont really know what to put in for this section. Not much on my mind about relationships now. Friendships yes, loads. BGR, nah not so much.


Dont say things like you can never stand up,
Dont do things that break you down,
Dont say things like "no one understands you"

Because after all, there is bound to be someone out there, who is ready to learn about you, to open his/her arms, and embrace you as tightly as he/she could ever could. And gift upon you protection, that one could dearly offer.

Now Im off. =D